Expressions - The Death of Silence

 I spent the long wintry nights cuddled like a fetus
Hoping I'm safe in my mother's womb never to see another day
Haunted by memories, carrying my dead soul and a lost mind.
I feared to open my eyes and see the emptiness within me.

My hopes, my dreams, my smiles and my love, all vanished
With just one word, leaving an empty pit inside of me.
My heart that once stringed the violin for you, now abandoned.
My mind that once obsessed for you, now in amnesiatic void.

I am not me but a living zombie, needing none and nothing.
Please move on like I never existed, as I never will be.
Everything died inside of me, including my inner silence.
Your words dug my grave and your absence closed me in...

- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

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Letter to GOD

Dear Father,
 
How are you? You would think I won't have much to write since I talk to you every day and every night. But no, I do.

First - What in heaven were you thinking when you created me? OR did you simply outsource me? I don't seem to fit the norm out here. Just curious...

Who created all the Laws of Life on Earth? Do the other planets have similar laws or are they different based on Species?

I misunderstood that human laws were created to STOP Hate... and not STOP Love. Where did I go wrong? Or Where did my Love go wrong?

If you are the Father to all creations, and love everyone just the same - Hindus, Muslims, Christians, Jews, Black, White, Yellow, Men and Women... Why is there injustice?

How do you ration smiles and tears for each person?

And last but never the least, Who is my partner? Did you forget a count?

Will call you before I go to bed tonight as usual.

Take care of us. I love you!
Sheba

- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

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Expressions - Death's Will

I swallow my tears to look strong, and by doing that I let my soul drown within me.

"When I die, bury me in your heart" said My Love to me.
"Why? I thought you lived happy in there already" I asked.
"No I'd rather die than live with your love" replied My Love painfully.
My heart stopped beating... 

Should I die too for a dying love or Could I live with a dead heart?

- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

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Expressions - Valentine's Day

I remember our footsteps on the wet sand
The waves chasing my dreams...
Or was it my dreams chasing the waves?
I am not too sure or I wasn't paying any attention.
Your hands holding mine, gripped my heart a little too tight.
I always knew love hurt when in pain...
I then realized it can also hurt when in ecstasy.
Soothing was your shadow, following me like a reflection of myself.

Time stood still within my mind as I imprisoned the memories.
And weaved them into secret dreams I'd need for the future.
When you're gone, and I can still hear and smell you...
When you're gone, and I can still feel and kiss you...
All I have is concocted hallucinations to keep me alive, and I knew
Every night I'll make love to you... and wake up to Valentine's Day!!!

- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

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Expressions - The Day my World Stopped

I cry so you can smile..
I hurt so you can heal..
I'm awake so you can sleep..
I burn so you can love..
I lied to make you free..
That I died.. so you can live!
 
- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

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Just for YOU!!!

When the skies turn gray and make you sad
I'll be the sun to wipe your frown...
When you find the moments that make you mad
I'll be the music that calms you down...
When you're helpless and feel completely lost
I'll be the road that makes your way...
When your pain exceeds life's mundane cost
I'll hold you every night and day...
When you want to cry and cannot talk
I'll stop in silence with no other clue...
When you find yourself and make your mark
I'll show you forever am just for you...

- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

p.s. Everything that rhymes is necessarily not Poetry...

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Expressions - Is this LOVE?

The day I woke up next to you and forgot the rest of the world ever existed.

The night I wished would never dawn and the kiss I wished would never end.

The times I watched you sleep in peace on my shoulder… and hated my clock for ticking so loudly.

The moment I stifled a sneeze, just so I don’t wake you up from your dreams - hoping you were dreaming about me.

The times you said “No” and I said “Ok” and the times I wanted to say “No” but still said “Ok”.

The times I cried and din’t feel weak for I know I showed you that I am ‘real’.

The times you cried and I felt like I drowned and just died in your tears.

The times your simple smile lit up my sky with a billion stars on a sunny day.

The times your touch melted my heart in the dead winter night.

The times you held me and I disappeared into nowhere.

The screaming silence inside my mind and the silent screams of my soul – both calling your name with a never ending passion.

I saw it, I heard it, I felt it and I lost it – all in you. 

If this is not what they call “Love” then "what is this"?

- NOT another 'simple southy'.... Just call me a Madrasi...

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